I think, today is the day. The day for us to choose our own path. For these years before I've been hurting you so much. And I am not the girl that you can proud to have. I am just nothing with complicated style and difficult to deal with.

I am gonna miss you badly. Of course I do. You are my first love. You are the first one that I experienced every single thing together. I do feel insecure when you keep updating your Instagram's feed selfie with another girl. And I am hurt too when I found that you keep deleting the tweet that you have mentioned me before. Why? Are you very ashamed to have me?

I will try to live without you. I will try to move on even though I know it will take a lot of times for me. The reason I walk away from you is not because of you or yourself. I am the one the biggest problem is. I get angry easily. I get emotional easily. I am quite a sensitive girl. And I don't even know what the matter that keeps disturb me.

I know you have been through a lot of hard times. And I keep burden you up with my silly actions. I am so sorry. I don't know why I act like a child. Why I keep asking a lot of attention from you. And one thing that I know exactly, I am not deserved to be loved. It is a really hard babe. I swear I don't think I couldn't make it live my life without you. But I have to try. So that I won't hurt you anymore.

And you also know how much that I love you? I don't even dare to think about my life after this. Although I said that I hate you. You will keep it cool and just let it be like I never said it before. And I know it hurt you more. I try to change. I tried to be someone even better than me before. But I couldn't. I am so sorry. I can't be a better girl for you.

I hope you will lived your live with much calmer than before. And I hope one fine day, you will meet a good girl that can be a right companion for you.

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